A year ago I left my job not knowing what I was going to do next and went on a 40 day backpacking trip solo in Europe. I visited 7 countries and 10 cities. In a later post I’ll talk about my adventures over there.
So I bet you’re wondering what led me to doing this.
I had been sleep the past 4 years of my life and it wasn’t until January 2016 when the light went off. I was stuck in being comfortable with the routine. I had a career job, new car and recently bought a house. So in the american eye I was doing pretty well for myself. But in reality, I was tired of the “9-5” and the same thing everyday. I was thinking there has to be more to life than this.
It all started summer of 2015 when i started seeking God about my purpose in life.
Have you had the urge that you should be doing more in life instead of just existing?
I started to have that feeling and that’s when I started to dislike my job. When I started seeking God about the reason for my existence, I never thought it would have led to me not liking my job anymore.
I didn’t know what my next step was going to be and what I wanted to do but this wasn’t it. So when the time came for me to sign my teacher contract for next year, I decline. After I decided to leave, it became a struggle everyday to get out of bed. I was looking for other avenues to pursue but nothing opened up. I had to go through a waiting period and it sucked. I don’t know the reason why God wanted me to wait but in due time everything will be revealed to me!
So on June 2nd I headed off to Europe and had an amazing time. I wouldn’t trade that experience for anything. I still can’t believe that I actually went over their by myself. I did face many challenges like being an American/African American while traveling, getting lost in the middle of the night and having someone actually follow me from one country to the other. I know scary but I kept it cool. I am so thankful and blessed that I was able to experience the trip.
When I got back from the trip I still didn’t know what I was going to do. I entered a dark place of second guessing my decision. It’s not a good feeling not knowing who you are anymore. I had a feeling that I was suppose to be doing something great but I didn’t know exactly what that was. During this time I met a guy that at the time I thought was my “husband”. What I mean is I had created a husband quality list at the beginning of the year and he had all the qualities.
To make a long story short, he ended up being abusive and now I’m pregnant with his child. Yea I know right. That whole story deserves a post on it’s on.
So I wanted to create an outlet to share my story with others. I firmly believe that the things we go through in life is not about us. It’s about the people that we are suppose to reach. Right now I am a single mother raising my child while still pursing to find my purpose in life. I ended going back to teaching for my daughter. One thing that my pastor said was “sometimes you have to make temporary sacrifices for permanent solutions”. That’s what I’m doing. It’s not solely about me anymore.
I hope that you jump on this wagon with me and enjoy my life story and we together will see how this all unfolds.